Obsession: Sam Hamer

Obsession Sam Hamer

What made me post this old gem? I was checking analytics and SEO business and while searching the rankings this popped up.

I filmed this as a university (college + university degree) project for “online content” at the time I was already established in online media working for Vital BMX, but I wanted to branch out and try something different. I approached Sam Hamer who is a close friend of mine who I’ve known for many years about shooting a short skateboarding documentary on him. Looking back on this I was extremely proud when I finished it, but now I can point out everything that’s wrong with the oddly placed answers to the overly loud background music.

There is something so satisfying about reliving and looking back on the past. You can see how you’ve progressed and how you learnt to fix things. You can apply these skills to everything in life.

Needless to say, I think I may start producing more of these in the future if I  ever pick up a camera again. It fascinates me to shadow people and get a story on their lives and their obsessions.

If you think this would be a good idea let me know? Who would you want to see something like this shot with? Should I bring back the short “Obsession” series?

Obsession: Sam Hamer from Chris Wilmshurst on Vimeo.

Relections

My BMX

How do you look at yourself knowing you’ve become something you dislike? How do you face up to the underlying fact that you weren’t the person you first spoke of, that your kindness deteriorated, your passion and love withered away with each passing moment? Then your own reflection becomes something that you can’t stand.

This is something I’ve been battling with for the past month and further sparked by a heartbreaking and humiliating discovery. I have been a horrible person I was untrusting, stubborn, and aggressive, I also allowed this to completely alter my mood and weight.

My BMX

My diet plan

Over the past three years my perception of happiness was challenged and altered when I met the person I thought I’d marry, I adapted, I cancelled out, and attempted to shape my life around this person. Doing so resulted in less passion for things I loved doing growing up, changes of careers, investing in a different culture, and even putting on far too much weight in the process.
These changes of circumstance contributed to a decline in happiness.
When I gained weight my mood changed, I felt shit about myself, I felt shit around others and I relayed that onto other people. This was evident by the lack of time I would spend with others, I was rarely seen amongst my friends and when I saw my girlfriend at the time I was lazy, I didn’t want to do anything and I was a complete introvert.

It has taken a break up to smack me in the face. I’m one month into an aggressive diet, I’m riding my bike multiple times a week, and I am losing a lot of weight. I know this is the case as people are complimenting the fact that my physical appearance has changed and is reminiscent of my late teens, I’m becoming muscular and slimmer again.

These positive effects in my physique are also transferring to my mentality. Yes, I’ve had some shit discoveries and news today’s but it hasn’t overly knocked me back. I’m confident, I know I’m not ugly, I’m charming, funny, and generous, I have a lot to give to someone who has as much to give back.

So what is my diet? Well, it’s very extreme. I have been eating a bare minimum. Two bananas for lunch and a small tin of soup for dinner. I top this off with 3L of water a day and it has been a challenge. I have had the odd cheat day where I’ve had a packet of crisps or in the case of Topokki, a small meal. This may be considered excessive, but it is helping me greatly.

Here is a before photo and a current progress shot.

Before my diet started

Before starting my diet


Current diet progress

Three weeks into my diet, noticeable changes to my physique

Positive Steps

Without the people I call friends in my life, I wouldn’t be here. They are truly some of the most remarkable people I’ve met. None of them are perfect and some even have had similar experiences, but they are the reason I’m still smiling and pushing forward. I’m full of self-determination (SD) it has been a driving force and love behind everything I’ve undertaking over this month.

If you are new to this blog I noted in my first post that I now have savings, this is something I have never had. I have a game plan, a passport, a list of destinations I am going to visit and what I want to achieve over the next few years.
Writing and music have become my ultimate pass time. I was never a good writer and I did not do too well at high school in my GCSE’S, in fact, I’d quite honestly say I failed. Grammar and spelling are something that I’ve been battling myself with and challenging myself to understand much further as I’ve got older. If it wasn’t for Kyle Carlson at Vital BMX giving me grammar lessons and pointing out mistakes and teaching me about such things as the Oxford comma this blog would be ten times worse than it is now.

Music is also a strong glue that’s held me together. In the past when I had suffered a serious breakup, I’d retreat to my room and listen to extremely depressing music, but now I listen to positive music, music with a strong message of self-determination, ambitions, and goals. It’s these strongly worded songs that keep positivity at the forefront of my mentality.

I want to leave you with a list of songs I’ve listened too that may seem depressing, but have been driving forces in pursuing my goals.

Logic – Feel Good

John Legend – Love me Now

Flume – Say it like that (illenium remix)

Worcester Isn’t So Bad

Worcester isn't so bad?

One of the great things about the iPhone 7+ is the camera, I’ve found since owning it that I’ve been excited to take photos far more than I did with my 6. It makes taking photographs easy with its great picture quality, acceptable low light performance and the incredible, yet sometimes flawed “portrait mode”.

So whenever the sun is shining, friends gather, or we take the dogs for a walk I have to make sure I take as many photos as I can. Here are some photos from one trip down the River Severn with friends. I hope you enjoy them.

River Severn PathwayBicycle along River SevernLela Pug Cross BreedRiver SevernDiglisThomas / SkateboarderDiglis DocksDiglis DocksJenOvergrown

Jack Dickinson and George Taylor

Jack Dickinson 180 Bar Spin

After suffering fairly bad sunburn from a full day of riding the previous day, riding didn’t work out too well today. However, I did manage to snap this shot of Jack Dickinson.

Jack Dickinson 180 Bar Spin

After succumbing to the heat, myself and George headed into town for new shoes.  I snapped this portrait of  George Taylor outside Two Seasons in Worcester. George Taylor Portrait